1. |
Envision
01:39
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My distorted point of view of everything was forced upon
But I will stay focused
Joy I will envision
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2. |
Blown
02:58
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This has come to no surprise
You're standing still, with a helpful disguise
Realize that you're not a prize
Especially when all you've said were lies
Blown. Your cover's blown.
(BLEGH)
Why do you think I really give a fuck about your feminism?
Gaining not a thing from your criticism
I am not afraid
So what makes you so
fucking special
Not a fucking thing
Not a thing
Not a fucking thing
In this instance now
I am in spite
My dignity
I will forever hold tight
What a waste of time
What a waste of time
I reached my prime
I really thought it was worth it for you
What a waste of time
What a waste of time
I reached my prime
But my mind was still divided in two
Wasting away deep in your own self pity
Every thing you've said was self proclaimed witty
Sucking life from all the struggling masses
While you're breathing in your own demise
What a waste of time
In this instance now
I am in spite
My dignity
I will forever hold tight
What a waste of time
What a waste of time
I reached my prime
I really thought it was worth it for you
What a waste of time
What a waste of time
I reached my prime
But my mind was divided in two
What a waste of time
What a waste of time
I reached my prime
I really thought it was worth it for you
What a waste of time
I reached my prime
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3. |
Workaholic
04:14
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It was a six foot drop
As I stood on top
Of the balcony
Face first fall
Blood was pouring
You looked out for me
Hearing my cries of pain
Your instincts kicked in
Stopping all the blood rain
Only because again:
You're my mother
You tried to make it all better and
You succeeded
Parental guidance
Of who to be
And who not to be
Where were you with all of the struggle?
Right in front of us taking it all
Defending us fighting for us
Only you would take that fall
Take this chance to look in the mirror
In my eyes you were never a failure
Sacrificing everything to keep us together
Through a weakening and endless endeavor
You're my mother
You tried to make it all better and
You succeeded
Parental guidance
Of who to be
And who not to be
I'll do whatever it takes to get home to you
No matter what we've been through
'Cause I just can't go on
I just can't go on
We could never see eye to eye
We could never see eye to eye
We could never agree on him
While you stood your ground
I stood by him
I've learned what you always knew
It was him, it wasn't you
You succeeded
Parental guidance
Of who to be
And who not to be
I'll do whatever it takes to get home to you
No matter what we've been through
'Cause I just can't go on
Without you
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4. |
Narcissistic
03:13
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As I look back to my decisions again
I am a fucking cynic
I have a crooked mind
I am so insensitive
I am hiding behind
You and your stable stance
You have a part of me
You keep your mind advanced
You will always be
There for me
Always standing there
Waiting for me
You my brother
I remember when I was
Living inside my car
No where to go but to you
You gave my life a new start
Constantly in a good mood
Even when things are fucked
A positive influence
I call it luck 'cause
you will always be
There for me
Always standing there
Waiting for me
You my brother
I won't forget your selfless nature
Please don't ever ever go
You pulled me up to be my savior
I just needed you to know
Even though we don't see eye to eye
Your visions are different than mine
You're such a selfless human being
The best I've ever seen
As I look back to my decisions again
I won't forget your selfless nature
Please don't ever ever go
You pulled me up to be my savior
I just needed you to know
I just needed you to know
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5. |
Bare
02:25
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It started with a frozen stare
Standing bare
I will swear
You never cared
Failure
Sharp and stern
I learned the hard way
And I hope someday you'll learn
At least I knew when it was
Was time to give you up
I always knew you were nothing
You're nothing but corrupt
Looking back I won't regret it
I'll wish you the best of luck
But with me, you can just forget it
Unoriginal worthless fuck
Worthless
Thoughtless
Careless
Senseless
Don't think I forgot about you
I will never forget your face
Remember those promises you made
Don't worry at your own pace
You're both crooked and cynical human beings
Exaggerated overestimated hyperbolic fakes
I do all the fucking work and it'll be worth it just to see the both of you fall flat on your faces
Did you really want to get on my bad side
Cause you'll always be a failure in my eyes
Falling all the way down to the ground
The both of you can go fuck yourselves.
(BLEGH)
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6. |
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Delusion falls upon those who squander
The right to live up to one's primal dormant
coherence
Denying light to the uncharted realm
Existing only within reach of obscure imagination
A lie, made true by sloth
Damned to forever repeat the desolation of recast self-eradication
No ambitions are unreachable
If you don't try and fall
Wasted potential
No objectives are impossible
If you try and fall
Don't surrender it all
Delusion falls upon those who squander
The right to live up to one's primal dormant
coherence
Denying light to the uncharted realm
Existing only within reach of obscure imagination
A lie, made true by sloth
Damned to forever repeat the desolation of recast self-eradication
Wasting hours, wasting days away
You strategize your play
In an elaborate way
All the while, there are debts to pay
Plunging all the way
Into moral decay
No ambitions are unreachable
If you try (you try) and fall (and fall)
Reclaim (reclaim) your potential
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7. |
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I shouldn't feel this way
I have grown attached to you
Distance is the obstacle
And he is too
Such a pretty face
Taken away from me
Before I had you
We weren't meant to be
I feel dirty
I shouldn't feel this way
Immorality
This is not okay
I could never trust you
I will never forget
Why would you do this
My mind was set
Going back to something that you hate
You never know what you want
I am a fucking fool
Yet you act nonchalant
I can't help myself
I let you back in
So apologetic
I will forgive you.
I don't know who you are
But I'll give you my best explanation
So where is it going?
I'm breathing now that loving you is all I know
It was always hell for me to lose a part of me
Three thousand miles will always lead me home
Lead me home.
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8. |
Coward
02:27
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With your hand placed on my chest, you push me out
Stumbling back, proclaimed a "coward"
With false accusations surrounding me
Turn to you with silence, I abhor
Was everything a lie to me?
Even when you confided in me?
These questions run through my head
Insults that you force fed into my consciousness
I never thought it would end this way
With time to think, oh while I drive away
I never wanted it to come to this
I don't blame you and your acts of self defense
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9. |
Sky
04:02
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Oh what a world that I see
Burning down in front of me
Calmly looking up towards the sky
Longing to fly
Fly so far away
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10. |
Pills
02:09
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I can't say I haven't tried
To be a good person
Wasting my potential
To be a good son
I can't be here anymore
I cannot wait until
I'm all alone again
I will take these pills
This one is for you
This one is for them all
This one is for everyone
Who watched me fall
Selfish
Heartless
Human Being
Selfish
Worthless
Coward
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11. |
Lense
03:49
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Bright
Such a blinding light
Sitting alone in my own self conscious
Always in a state of mind of everlasting paranoia
Constantly gripping reality
Realizing the path that was given before me
was the right idea
I see it
The blinding light
I need it
Staying alive is the last thing I need
No goodbye
No second chance
No more pain
Sitting here
As it runs through my veins
An empty stare leaves
It leaves as quickly as it, quickly as it came
I feel the change: vomit profusely on the floor
Why?
Subconscious
Wants me alive
Don't know why
Something has stopped me from killing myself
Was it God?
Answer me God
Where were you
God?
I'm still here
I look up and
Quietly say
Thank You
No belief
Yet I stay thankful
I'm still alive
I pushed, then something pulled me in
It pulled me in
And I don't know my purpose yet
Joy I will envision
Whether it be for her
Or a beautiful face
Or for my family
My spirit stays strong
I will live
I will aspire
To be something wonderful
Thank you whatever force
Thank you for keeping me alive.
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12. |
Revision
01:52
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My distorted point of view of everything was forced upon
But I will stay focused
Joy I will envision
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