Sitting alone in my own self conscious
Always in a state of mind of everlasting paranoia
Constantly gripping reality
Realizing the path that was given before me
was the right idea
I see it
The blinding light
I need it
Staying alive is the last thing I need
No goodbye
No second chance
No more pain
Sitting here
As it runs through my veins
An empty stare leaves
It leaves as quickly as it, quickly as it came
I feel the change: vomit profusely on the floor
Why?
Subconscious
Wants me alive
Don't know why
Something has stopped me from killing myself
Was it God?
Answer me God
Where were you
God?
I'm still here
I look up and
Quietly say
Thank You
No belief
Yet I stay thankful
I'm still alive
I pushed, then something pulled me in
It pulled me in
And I don't know my purpose yet
Joy I will envision
Whether it be for her
Or a beautiful face
Or for my family
My spirit stays strong
I will live
I will aspire
To be something wonderful
Thank you whatever force
Thank you for keeping me alive.
credits
from Envision,
released May 5, 2014
Ryan Strain
Brandon McKagan
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